vanished iit dream...

Well, yes. The dream sadly did not become  reality. The jee results were out 2 days before. Didn't even get through in the merit list and came at around 1700 in the extended list ( well, this is a completely misleading list which was just for the sake of consolation to some aspirants who just couldn't make it , and is also for some non iit institutions ). And yes, i'm feeling sad too. But i won't go into scrutinising the cause of my failure . Because i feel it's plain impossible. I felt around 2-3 years before, that getting into iit means is the sole meaning of schooling and any kind of study ! But that pereception has changed completely. There is a whole lot of meaning to iit preparation than to clearing the exam. Many feel it's a waste of time to prepare and not clear but i don't. I may be right or wrong but that's what i feel. I'm just looking it from my perspective. That of one who has lost the IIT race to others .  

There are thousands of articles on the newspaper, internet, ..etc .. which tell many ways of IIT preparation, but i bet you not a single one helps. When it comes to entrance exams , i think there is no written, or spoken way to success . It all just happens as such. I think there is no better application of the saying, " take care of small things, and the bigger things fall automatically into place ", than entrance exams.Well I'm able to say this now only as i did not clear jee.  A few months before nothing like this would come to my mind, and i think it wouldnt have to anybody else who are like me. I would suggest to any aspirant that always work to become rank 1 , whatever be the competition and however small the test is . The mentality that being in the top 10 is good...is extremely fatal. It'll gradually come to top 20..then 50..then 100.... and it never ends.

Well , all that's my point of view. And as i said before, no point of view of entrance exams is perfect. It just goes like that. You think you've done well enough and you end up at the trench. You mess up with something and you go up the mountain. It is really a strange sort of thing. You just have to do one thing well. Learn what is required. Again the question is ,how much is actually required! Yes.. this q & a session would never ever end..

And about what i said.. about how preparing to iit never goes waste.. here's something on it.

First, you learn how to learn the hard way. for eg :on the way of preparing , you realise how badly has those spoonfeedings at school affected you. Now there's no way you can STUDY the whole thing.U gotta to use those things inside your head to a much greater amount. This might be the first experience of 'learning the hard way '.

Secondly ,  With these things you can never say, Okay ..i've done enough..One will realise there are just no limits to learning .

and there are much more. you learn how to inspire yourself to come up from uncomfortable situations. You learn how to deal with different people differently. You learn to become a nerd at home and a dashy teenager at school. You realise how much things are out of control. Your favorite club's football match is enough to get you on the bottom of the rank list . And more often, fate starts playing games. You lose an important notebook with so many notes, you write it down all over from your friend, even though you have to study for a test paper at school the next day. So you have to sit very late into night and sleep for some 4-5 hours. You go to the test next day, feel sleepy and write some bullshit and comeback. And when at home you see that your note book is there under a pillow. But then you don't even have time to get angry, cuz you have to leave for the coaching class! This is it.. Things like this can happen..and will happen , esp in 12th. You'l atleast think a hundred times about giving up, but if you even get conviced once, then you will be gone for nothing. 

Like this... one learns a million things in these 2 years of preparation for the entrance tests.. 

and whatever you learn.. it's just an addition to your personality.. so i think i have no need to feel dejected about effort getting wasted .. and neither do others like me.. there's always something up for grabs.. 

So that's it.. that's something i feel about ' entrance ' exams.. from whatever i've experienced..

but for good or bad 11th nd 12th years are rely different from anythin before that.. i'm sure about that..